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All There Is with Anderson Cooper

Do we ever move on from grief, or do we just learn to live with it? In Season 2 of All There Is, Anderson Cooper continues his deeply personal journey to understand his own feelings of grief in all its complexities, and in moving and honest discussions, learn from others who’ve experienced life-altering losses. All There Is with Anderson Cooper is about the people we lose, the people left behind, and how we can live on – with loss and with love.

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Facing Our Grief
All There Is with Anderson Cooper
Nov 29, 2023

Grief doesn’t just go away, no matter how hard we may want it to. So how can we live with it and learn from it? These are the questions Anderson Cooper struggles to answer after the first season of All There Is ends. Anderson spends months playing more than 1000 unheard voicemail messages about grief from podcast listeners, and once again finds himself in his basement surrounded by boxes, full of letters, photos and objects that belonged to his late father, mother, and brother.?He also talks with psychotherapist and author Francis Weller, whose book “The Wild Edge of Sorrow” gives him hope.

Episode Transcript
Anderson Cooper
00:00:00
Twinkle, twinkle, little star.
Sebastian
00:00:04
Oh, wow. Oh, wow.
Anderson Cooper
00:00:08
I didn't plan on doing another season of this podcast. I felt overwhelmed when the first season ended and took a break from going through the boxes of things that belonged to my mom and dad and brother, all of whom are gone.
Anderson Cooper
00:00:22
[Singing] Up above the world so high....
Sebastian
00:00:24
Bah bah bah.
Anderson Cooper
00:00:26
Yeah, you almost got it.
Anderson Cooper
00:00:28
I've been trying to spend as much time as possible with my kids...
Anderson Cooper
00:00:31
Sleep well, Sebastian. Sleep well Wyatt. I love you.
Wyatt
00:00:35
I love you so much.
Anderson Cooper
00:00:36
I love you so much too.
Anderson Cooper
00:00:40
But whenever I go down to my basement, I'm reminded that grief doesn't go away.
Anderson Cooper
00:00:46
So I'm in the basement of my house and, surprise, it is filled with boxes.
Anderson Cooper
00:00:56
This spring, I started feeling guilty about all those unopened boxes and about all the voicemail messages from listeners during the first season that I hadn't gotten around to playing.
Caller 1
00:01:05
I lost my father when I was ten.
Caller 2
00:01:08
My beautiful son died three years ago.
Caller 3
00:01:12
My mother died when I was 13.
Anderson Cooper
00:01:15
Last season, I'd asked you to leave a message if there was something you'd learned in your grief that might be helpful to others.
Caller 4
00:01:21
I felt compelled to call.
Caller 5
00:01:24
We lost our son Brad eight years ago.
Caller 6
00:01:28
My dad took my mom's life and then took his own.
Caller 7
00:01:31
I lost my only child and she was two.
Anderson Cooper
00:01:35
I'd only had time to listen to about 200 of the calls before I had to select some and write the final episode of the podcast. But there were more than a thousand calls I hadn't heard.
Caller 8
00:01:44
I have never heard anything like this before, but I never told this to anyone.
Caller 9
00:01:49
My mother, she was very, very abusive.
Anderson Cooper
00:01:53
Even though I wasn't going to do another podcast, I decided a few months ago I'd listen to all your messages. I mean, you'd taken the time to leave them. The least I could do was listen.
Caller 10
00:02:04
Society was telling me it's just a miscarriage. Just get over it.
Caller 11
00:02:08
And I had to grieve the person that I was.
Caller 12
00:02:12
There is life after death, both for oneself and for the relationship of the person who lives.
Caller 13
00:02:18
My relationship with my parents wasn't over as I feared it would be.
Anderson Cooper
00:02:22
Every day I'd put in my AirPods and I'd hear your sadness...
Caller 14
00:02:26
You hear those words, "your child has cancer."
Anderson Cooper
00:02:30
Your bravery...
Caller 15
00:02:30
It's okay to cry and it's okay to talk about it. It's okay that it sucks.
Anderson Cooper
00:02:34
And your love...
Caller 16
00:02:36
When I wear this jacket, I feel wrapped in his love. Even 27 years after his death.
Anderson Cooper
00:02:44
You helped me feel my own sadness in a way I never allowed myself to. I'm embarrassed to say, listening to your messages, I cried more than I ever have before.
Caller 17
00:02:56
I held Ian in my arms. I could just feel this heart pounding in my chest. I said It's already Ian. I love you. And I felt his heart stop.
Anderson Cooper
00:03:11
Today, I've listened to probably three hours of voicemails from people and every now and then I have to stop because it's uh....[sigh]
Caller 18
00:03:21
I'm calling from Edmonton, Alberta, Canada....
Anderson Cooper
00:03:22
It took more than two months, but I listened to every one of you. I listened to more than 46 hours of your calls.
Caller 19
00:03:31
The sobbing may last a minute or two, but I honor that.
Caller 20
00:03:34
There's strength and vulnerability.
Caller 21
00:03:37
This awful experience is actually the thing that pulled us together.
Caller 22
00:03:42
So many grieve in silence. Hold it in. Carry the weight. It has to go somewhere.
Anderson Cooper
00:03:47
I didn't understand why I was so emotional. I mean, I've always been pretty good at controlling my feelings. When I was done listening to all your calls, I went down to the basement and for the first time in months, opened up a box at random. It turned out to be full of my dad's papers. He was a writer, and the first paper that I picked up was an essay he'd written that I'd never seen before, and it stunned me.
Anderson Cooper
00:04:14
It doesn't have a year on it, but it's called The Importance of Grieving. I came across a section where he was talking about kids and the importance of kids grieving, and then he quotes a psychologist. "Psychoanalytic studies have shown that when a person is unable to complete a mourning task in childhood, he either has to surrender his emotions in order that they do not suddenly overwhelm him or else he may be haunted constantly throughout his life with a sadness for which he can never find an appropriate explanation." And when I read that, I just thought, that's me. That's exactly what I did. And it's true. I have lived through my entire life with this sadness for which I can never find an appropriate explanation. And here it is. My dad writing this when I was a little kid. He knew he was at great risk of dying early. And maybe he did write this with me in mind, my brother in mind. And maybe he maybe thought one day, maybe those kids will come across this. I like to think of it as like a message from him. It's reading that sentence that my dad somehow picked out. I realized, I guess for the first time, that I didn't really grieve my dad's death at all and that I didn't really grieve my brother's death. I didn't allow myself to. That's like going through all this stuff has been so overwhelming. And I thought I was just going through my mom's boxes to organize them. But what I opened up was hidden boxes of grief that I stored away, that I buried when I was ten years old. And then when I was 21 and listening to your voicemail messages, listening to 46 hours, it opened up all these boxes in my own head and in my own heart. And I need to deal with all this stuff, not just this literal stuff in the basement. I can't just keep it all stored away. So that's why I'm doing another season of this podcast. I don't want to keep this sadness, this grief buried any longer. I can't.
Anderson Cooper
00:06:26
It's like that listener Jen said. It has to go somewhere. It doesn't go away. And in trying to bury my own sadness, I realize now I've also buried my ability to feel joy. I don't want to live half a life any longer. I want to feel all there is.
Anderson Cooper
00:06:47
We'll be right back with my guest, Francis Weller, whose book about grief and loss was a revelation to me.
Anderson Cooper
00:07:07
Welcome back to All There Is. My guest is Francis Weller. He's a psychotherapist whose book "The While the Edge of Sorrow," was sent to me by a listener named Cynthia, whose son, John, died in 2016 when he was 32. Cynthia wrote me a letter saying she hoped something in Francis's book would speak to me. I started "The Wild Edge of Sorrow" and it blew me away. I underlined things on nearly every page.
Anderson Cooper
00:07:33
When I got back from Israel, I wasn't sure that I should even do this podcast. And I felt like in the face of so much suffering in Israel and in Gaza, talking about my grief or talking about any individual person suffering. I mean, does it matter in the face of the scale of suffering that we're seeing?
Francis Weller
00:07:56
Well, let's ask the question, what would happen if we don't address our grief, our personal grief? And that's kind of the collective trouble we're in right now, is that if we don't address our grief, our hearts close. And our hearts don't have the capacity then to register the suffering of the world. So this podcast gives anybody who's listening a chance to address their own grief and to not minimize it, not shut it down, not do comparison, which is so hard to not do. But our hearts depend upon our ability to keep close to our the sorrows that are there.
Anderson Cooper
00:08:32
Facing one's own sadness, facing one's own grief. It helps one become more understanding of the sorrow of others?
Francis Weller
00:08:41
Yes. What grief work does is it has a way of deepening our capacity to hold sorrow, to hold suffering. James Hillman, one of my primary teachers, said that the issues are rarely about resolution. We're not here to resolve our issues. The issue is about spaciousness. How much can I hold? How much can I allow in to touch me? Most of us, because of our traumas and our grief, that aperture has become so small that we barely register the sorrows of the world. We barely let them in.
Anderson Cooper
00:09:19
I listened to about a thousand calls, more than 46 hours of voicemail messages from people about their losses, about their grief. And a lot of the callers talked about their own sort of suppressed grief, the grief that they didn't allow themselves to acknowledge until late in life. And I just want to I want to play this one call.
Caller
00:09:43
As I approach the age at which my mother died and my children approach the age of me and my siblings, when she passed, something was triggered inside me subconsciously that brought up the grief that I never processed as a child. I was able to finally cry and grieve as that 13 year old girl who never could really cry it out because she had to develop skills to survive and thrive.
Anderson Cooper
00:10:06
I was stunned by what she said because I feel very similar.
Francis Weller
00:10:12
Very few of us had our grief, our losses held adequately by anybody. So that unhealed material doesn't just disappear, it doesn't just go away. It burrows in and becomes someplace that we will have to return to at some point.
Anderson Cooper
00:10:31
You hear that all the time?
Francis Weller
00:10:32
I do. And I've also encountered that myself. Just how much that melancholic echo was with me all through my life. I was the youngest of eight kids, and they're all gone. And suddenly I'm having to take care of him, get him dressed. I was now the parent of this man who couldn't really take care of himself. So all of what I was feeling, the grief and the fear, the anger, all of that had to be. Submerged. There was no room for it. We were in survival mode. So all of that just had to disappear. And I didn't touch that until. Gosh, probably in my 40s, it began to push its way back to the foreground.
Anderson Cooper
00:11:19
And it doesn't go away.
Anderson Cooper
00:11:21
It doesn't go away. It shouldn't go away. It's part of our story. It's part of our history. It's part of the depths of who we are. And so it really does request to require demand at some point, some acknowledgment. I mean, isn't that what's happening for you right now, Anderson?
Anderson Cooper
00:11:39
Yeah, I mean, but I don't even know what that means. Like, I don't even know like, what does that mean to it?
Francis Weller
00:11:45
Well, it does mean that we have to at some point be willing to turn toward that grief because the strategic posture is always moving out in a way, getting busy doing our life, doing our career. At some point, there's a pivot we have to make and turn and face all of the untended grief that's in our life. I mean, we live in what we could call a very heroic culture. And we're told to buck up just to get over it, to rise above it, even in our spiritual traditions right now. How do you transcend this trouble? But we're never really taught how to be with it when we're asked to carry it alone privately. We end up carrying it around a new holds, dragging this weight behind us. And so we rarely feel like we're in the current of life. We're really living more tethered to the past than we are in our current life. So to really do grief work is actually to get present. It's to be in this time, in this place. But throughout our history as a species, grief has always been communal. It's never been private until now. And in that privatization, in that sense of having to sequester my grief within my own being, I feel like I'm all alone in this. And that's one of the most intolerable places for the soul to be.
Anderson Cooper
00:13:06
What is the next step? I mean, I feel like a well, an ocean of tears just below the surface. For the last two months, I've just felt it constantly there. And it bubbles up all the time now. Yeah.
Anderson Cooper
00:13:21
You have to make a slow titration into that territory. I don't think we dive headfirst into it. We have to build some faith that the grief itself won't swallow me. So you can do a little writing practices to begin to know that I can touch into that space and step back out, touch into it, step back out, Begin to see that when you're there and when you return. I'm not going to drown. This grief belongs here. It'll actually help me to become more human.
Anderson Cooper
00:13:51
I think I would do that over the decades by going to wars and going to places where people were suffering and touch it and then be able to step back and leave.
Francis Weller
00:14:02
Yeah.
Anderson Cooper
00:14:03
So in answer to the question, how do you how do you begin to feel again? You say slowly.
Francis Weller
00:14:11
'Slowly. There's three principles. One is to slow down the pace because the faster we go, it's like skiing, you know, water skiing. You know, speed is great for water skiing, but it keeps you on the surface to get into the depths. You have to slow down. So pace is the first thing. Second thing is warmth. Can I bring warmth to this place that sometimes for all of our lifetime, but also for generations, has been carried coldly? So can I bring warmth to it? Compassion, kindness, affection, curiosity, self-compassion. And the third movement is to bring it into some type of communal attunement where we can share what's there.
Anderson Cooper
00:14:56
Talking to other people about it.
Francis Weller
00:14:58
Talking to other people about it. So those three movements of slowing down, warming the place and bringing it into communal regulation, those are the things that we needed as a child. Think about that, right? When we get hurt, when we were witnessing, like, your father's death. To slow down and just make that the only thing that mattered. With someone sitting you down with you and just having their arms around you and just say, This is so sad. You must be so sad. And then to bring the affection and the warmth to that place so that someone sees you and someone gets that. How How much you are lost in this moment. And that brings the criminal element to it as well at the same time. So those are the things that we needed as a child. And when that doesn't manifest, what we're left with is how do I cope? How do I survive? How do I endure this? Well, we endured primarily by pushing it away.
Anderson Cooper
00:16:03
I feel like I turned deeply inward as a little child, and I've always felt like a shell of the person I was meant to be or the person I was. And I think that's the reason I felt that, because I don't think I've ever emerged from that defensive crouch. Hmm.
Francis Weller
00:16:20
So even just saying that, can you turn towards that boy who made that decision? Can you just be with that for a moment and just say, That was hard. I was alone. There was nobody there for me not to have pity for that boy, but to begin to give some some element of what it is that he needed in that moment. In that time.
Anderson Cooper
00:16:47
My mom would try to talk to me about my dad, tell stories about him. And I just found it. I just could not respond. I, I would say, oh, yeah, I remember that. But I just wanted her to stop talking. It is interesting. I realized recently how angry I am over what happened when I was a kid.
Anderson Cooper
00:17:08
Well, we think grief is only tears, but grief is also an outrage. Grief is also a form of protest. Though what happened to me was not all right, whether it's molestation or death by suicide of a brother like for you, those scars there, they need to be protested. They didn't. That outrage is a very important part of our grieving. It's not just like I said, it's not just our tears, but it's also our saying that what happened? Stays with me. Grief when we're really in it. We are in the commons of the soul.
Anderson Cooper
00:17:45
In the commons of the soul.
Francis Weller
00:17:47
Yeah. And what I mean by that is that any time you walk down the street, any pair of eyes you look into, they will know loss. No one's been excluded from that club. So it's what it's probably one of the most, if not the most common human experience is one of loss. But when you're in a grief phobic culture, that language, those comments don't get to be visited. So when it comes up, when it arrives at our door, we don't know how to be a good host to it if we don't know how to express it so we don't recognize it. I share this with you. I mean, your tears today are very touching to me.
Anderson Cooper
00:18:26
I deny that I'm crying at all.
Francis Weller
00:18:29
Well, try as you may, they're very familiar to me. And I think that's the beauty of what you're doing right now, Anderson.
Anderson Cooper
00:18:39
You write about revisioning grief. What do you mean by a revisioning of grief?
Francis Weller
00:18:48
'We all are familiar. A story is that it's something to get over or fix or get through as fast as possible. But what if we could re-imagine our relationship to sorrow, not as something to just endure, but to change it into an ongoing companionship? I mean, tell me a day that you've been through in your life when there wasn't at least some element of grief in it.
Anderson Cooper
00:19:12
Never.
Francis Weller
00:19:13
Never. But still, we have this estrangement to it. Right? And let's not buddy up to this thing. So to reposition this as as an ongoing process that I'm walking with grief every day. That keeps me in deep relationship to my soul. It keeps me really in relationship to the world and it keeps me capable of responding to what arises in my entire life or my relational lives. With warmth. With kindness. With some measure of care and compassion. So we do need to revision grief not as an unwelcome guest, but a continuous presence that we can befriend. I'm not saying it's not a difficult guest at times. Absolutely.
Anderson Cooper
00:20:03
Stephen Colbert talked about it as a tiger in the room with him.
Stephen Colbert
00:20:07
You know, I want to say something about living with grief. It's like living with a beloved tiger. There are times when it is when I say grateful for it. I don't want to say that it's no longer a tiger. It is. And it can really hurt you. It can pounce on you in moments that you don't expect. But it's my tiger. And I wouldn't want to get rid of the tiger. It's going to live as long as I do. It's painful. But there's some symbiotic relationship between me and this particular pain that I've made peace with. So I don't regret the existence of it. That again does not mean I wish it had ever become my tiger.
Francis Weller
00:20:55
Yeah. I mean, grief is fierce. Grief is not depression. It is a wild energy. It's feral. It's difficult. But we can come into relationship with it. And I think that's part of our aliveness, I think is when you meet someone who has digested grief adequately, they're not. Now. They're not flattened. They're actually quite alive. We can't just say we're going to shut down grief. Well, that has a cascading effect. It also such that joy, such down our aliveness. So to feel alive, I have to welcome this tiger. I have to welcome this difficult presence in my life. But. I've done so much more joy since doing that. I ever did before that.
Anderson Cooper
00:21:45
I want to ask you a little bit about your own experiences, because you say in the book it was through the dark waters of grief that I came to touch my unlived life. I built a strategically controlled life in which I was appreciated and respected. But when I plunged into this place of emptiness, it was like a wall that had been blocking. My view was shattered and I could finally see how I was limiting my life in hopes of avoiding the emptiness. You said facing our emptiness is the key to our freedom. Until we do. We are driven by lifelong patterns of avoidance. When I read that, I was like, Wow.
Francis Weller
00:22:16
Yeah. And that's it. At the heart of all of our sorrows is this profound experience of emptiness. And I ended up feeling so emptied that I really performed my life for the first 40 years.
Anderson Cooper
00:22:30
You performed your life for the first 40 years?
Francis Weller
00:22:33
Yeah, I was performing the role of the good man, but I wasn't inside my life. And that was so incredibly painful. And I began to see how much I had propped up a fiction. But that was the beginning of my return to coming back into this experience of being able to say, I'm here. I feel I weep. I'm in pain. That's where I began to feel human. It was through those outcast parts of me strength and get it down the road very far. It's these vulnerable parts of us that bring us back into the commons, back into relationship with others. These crises that happened in her life, the death of your brother, these rough initiations are invitational spaces to cross some threshold into some deeper sense of who we are meant to be. We're obsessed with happiness, but the real work isn't to be happy. It's to be alive. And when people come into my office, one of the first complaints is often I'm depressed. But when I listen to them for any length of time, it's not depression, it's oppression. It's the weight of untouched sorrow that has settled on them like sediment and become this immovable place in their heart. So we have to be able to loosen that territory up and bring them back into some closeness to that because there's so much vitality and grief.
Anderson Cooper
00:23:55
I just reread Joan Didion's book. She said, I know why we try to keep the dead alive. We try to keep them alive in order to keep them with us. I also know that if we are to live ourselves, there comes a point. There comes a point at which we must relinquish the dead. Let them go. Keep them dead. Let them become the photograph on the table. Let them become the name on the trust accounts. Let. Let go of them in the water. Knowing this does not make it any easier to let go of him in the water. I mean, is that the goal?
Francis Weller
00:24:30
I don't know. I don't know if there's a goal. I don't know what we need all the time. I think we are one of the few cultures that has almost no relationship to ancestors, whereas many traditional cultures, that's a very primary way of. It's as if the dead are not gone. They're still in the currency of life, of imagination, of dream, a feeling there in the land.
Anderson Cooper
00:24:56
I like that idea.
Francis Weller
00:24:58
So it's it's not something passed. It's a very current and alive relationship. I have been in some odd ways a better relationship with my mother now than I ever had when she was alive. So I think the ancestors are very much a part of who we are and what we're caring. We are suffering from a profound amnesia. We have forgotten how to be human. We have forgotten how to tend the comments of the soul. So there are all those forms of human expression are basically grief rituals. The anthropologists, archeologists think that we were probably be doing ritual before we actually had language. We were burying people. Ceremonially ritually. Right after 911, our son had just moved to New York City and we went to visit him. And everywhere that we went, there were circles of people, some silent, some singing, some praying. There were shrines everywhere. It's deep in our psychic structure to take what is unbearable into a ritual. You can't think your way through grief. You can't try to understand it or figure it out. It's too emotional and too embodied. And ritual is the language of emotion and body. It gives the psyche a way of expressing what the mind cannot totally comprehend. I spent some time in West Africa in a village in Burkina Faso, and there was a grief ritual happening someplace in the village almost every day. And I remember walking up to one woman and said, You have so much joy. And her response was, That's because I cry a lot. No, she made that immediate connection between this deep register of sorrow and the upper register of joy. When we deny that deeper register, the upper register collapses and we have this very narrow band of what we're allowed to feel, what I call the flat line culture. And so we rely upon excitement and stimulation and, you know, achievement rather than genuine joy, because we can't open to that deep place of sorrow together. Multiple times a year, 3 or 4 times a year. We hold grief rituals across the country, and it's a gathering usually for three days, usually 25 to 40 people. We do writing practices together. We share in small groups trying to loosen the ground. So by the time we got to the ritual itself, you were ready to move the grief out. The grief has never meant to be permanently stored in the body. It's supposed to be. Consistently moved out of the body. That's. That's the old idea. Traditional idea. I would love to have you come to a grief ritual.
Anderson Cooper
00:27:43
Maybe once I have become a little more fully evolved.
Francis Weller
00:27:47
'It takes a lot to do this. I mean, it takes a lot of courage. You know, we are so self-conscious. What will people think of me? I went to many grief rituals as a participant in my in the 1990s. It took me three grief rituals before I shared my first year. But I knew I carried this boatload of grief.
Anderson Cooper
00:28:06
You know, not everybody listening to this will be able to attend one of your rituals. So what can they do?
Francis Weller
00:28:13
Anything. I mean, it doesn't have to be complicated. Like a three day grief ritual. It could be just getting together with your friends and singing Friday night. The topic is loss. But let's just agree not to fix each other. Let's just agree not to give advice. Let's just, you know, light a candle. Say a poem. Say a prayer. Whatever you want to do. But let's begin to tell the stories. I think people are just longing for permission. And I think that's partly what you're giving them with this podcast. And I understand you're giving them permission to begin to speak about the griefs that they've been carrying sometimes for decades. That's what we need.
Anderson Cooper
00:28:54
Because just doing this by yourself is not enough.
Francis Weller
00:28:58
To express it to really, I mean, a lot of people come back and they say, Well, I had a very emotional week and there was a lot of grief. I said, Did you happen to share that with anybody? And they often say, no, I don't want to burden anybody. But that's like recycling grief.
Anderson Cooper
00:29:12
You said we cannot figure our way out of grief. We must turn toward our experience and touch it with the softest hands possible. Only then, in the inner terrain of silence and solitude will our grief yield to us and offer up its most tender shoots. This move is another form of sacred ritual crafted in the moment and consecrated by the grace of compassion.
Francis Weller
00:29:33
Yeah.
Francis Weller
00:29:35
It's beautiful.
Francis Weller
00:29:36
Thank you. Yeah. I told a story in that chapter about this woman I was working with. She said, you know, I hate going home at night. She was going through a pretty ugly divorce at the time. See when I get home. It's dark in there, it's cold and there's nobody there. And I'm lonely. So what? Can you imagine this as the holiest time of day? That when you open the door, you're greeting your most vulnerable self. Can you imagine greeting her and saying. I'm home. Let's put the fire on and start some soup. I'll start the tea. Tell me about your day. And then I remembered this line from the poet Rainer Maria Rilke, where he said, I am too alone in the world, but not alone enough to make every moment holy. And that's when you create a consecrated space. That's when you turn loneliness into solitude. That's when it becomes this sacred ground. When you can meet these tearful, sorrowful brothers, sisters, others that are there and you can grant them them, the audience that they are craving some sense of, I'm with you rather than what's on TV tonight. We keep finding ways to avoid that, as if we try to mask over, to anesthetize the absence of what it is we really want is some place to come home to some place of belonging. We rarely have that, and that is really at the heart of our grief. That's what we're talking about, is how alone we are to alone.
Anderson Cooper
00:31:13
So to someone who's listening to this and they do feel alone, what do you recommend?
Francis Weller
00:31:20
'Well, my hope is, is that every one of us has at least one person we could speak to, one little place of shelter. And if not, there are places where you can go to speak and share what's going on. You know, we read our wounds as if they're indictments against our character. Rather than symptoms of a larger loss. This loneliness, this depression, the anxiety, whatever it is that we're feeling, is really not some commentary on my character. But really the soul's trying to call our attention back to what is missing. What do we need to feel? Even some remote sense of contentment in this life. Well, we need to know that we belong. That we have some places to bring. What has been touched by pain or loss or grief? We need these places. And so finding 1 or 2 people that can welcome us into that shelters is necessary. Grief work opens the heart to compassion for others, but we need to practice the capacity to turn towards our own suffering, with kindness, with warmth, with affection. There is no suffering, no challenge, no loss. That doesn't require some degree of self-compassion.
Anderson Cooper
00:32:42
Thank you so much for talking to us.
Francis Weller
00:32:44
It's been a pleasure, Anderson.
Anderson Cooper
00:32:48
Frances Weller's book, which I really recommend, is called The While The Edge of Sorrow, Rituals of Renewal and the Sacred Work of Grief. You can find out more information about him on his website francisweller.net. Next week on All There Is, I sit down with President Biden in the White House. This isn't an interview about current events or politics. It's a conversation that I'm not sure any other modern American president has ever had before. It's about the losses in his life, how they've shaped him and how he lives with grief today.
President Biden
00:33:21
You've got to confront it, got to deal with it. Look at it and understand it and decide, I'm moving on. Because I have another purpose in life. My two children are alive, my grandchildren, my wife, my whatever it is. But it's hard as hell. And I mean this from the bottom of my heart. My word is a Biden. I think it's critical that people understand that they're always going to be with you. Your mother's in your heart every single day. Your brother put it in your heart. You're there every single day. And there come a time you can sort of welcome that, that you had that that it was there.
Anderson Cooper
00:34:06
President Biden next week on all there is. All There Is is a production of CNN Audio. The show is produced by Grace Walker and Dan Bloom. Our senior producers are Hayley Thomas and Felicia Patinkin. Dan Dzula is our technical director and Steve Lickteig is the executive producer of CNN Audio. Support from Charlie Moore, Kerry Rubin, Shimrit Sheetrit, Ronnie Bettis. Alex Mannaseri. Asari. Robert Mathers. John Dianora, Leni Steinhart, Jamus Andrest, Nicole Pesaru and Lisa Namerow. Special thanks to Katie Hinman. Thanks for listening.